It has been so long since I have written. Not just in this blog but anything- no poems, nada, zilch. Until last week, when I did an EMDR therapy session, my first processing session, processing a traumatic event from when I was 4. And wow, did the tears fall fast and hard, for forty minutesContinue reading “I am not ok…”
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Untamed, too?
Here I am… in nature, sitting by a campfire, gobbling up a memoir that is speaking directly to my inner voice. There are so many feels right now, so many “that is me!” moments, that I cannot put the book down, except to add more wood to the fire, fill up my glass of wine,Continue reading “Untamed, too?”
Emotional Rollercoaster
It is 8 weeks post surgery and I haven’t written in so long. At first, it was because I had such little energy. I went back to work after 3 weeks, yes only 3 weeks, and had to use all of my energy to deal with customers and my amazing but large team. Then myContinue reading “Emotional Rollercoaster”
Tomorrow Marks Two Weeks Post Surgery
This has been an interesting recovery, different than my previous surgeries. Maybe due to the sense of finality? Maybe due to the fact my pelvic cavity is quite empty and I do not have a uterus or right ovary try to recover from all of the scraping of Endo? There has been pain, but notContinue reading “Tomorrow Marks Two Weeks Post Surgery”
Surgery- Quick Update
Yesterday’s surgery was over 3 hours long. My doctor was a little delayed due to a previous surgery she had and I thought I would have a tremendous amount of anxiety while waiting. I did not. I was firm in my decision and was calmly waiting for my turn, for this new chapter. This recoveryContinue reading “Surgery- Quick Update”
Tomorrow is the Day
It is 11pm the night before my surgery and I am up, crying, feeling uneasy but firm in my decision for tomorrow. My fertility does not define me, I keep telling myself, though it has for a very long time. I have been infertile for 8 years now, the only hope of fertility for meContinue reading “Tomorrow is the Day”
One Week Until THE DAY
One week from today, I am having a hysterectomy and removal of my right ovary. One week from today, no more periods, no more ability to conceive, and hopefully not as much pain. Every day for the past few weeks, I have been going back and forth, like an indecisive pendulum, swinging into the “thisContinue reading “One Week Until THE DAY”
Living Life with Stage 4 Endometriosis 