It is 11pm the night before my surgery and I am up, crying, feeling uneasy but firm in my decision for tomorrow. My fertility does not define me, I keep telling myself, though it has for a very long time. I have been infertile for 8 years now, the only hope of fertility for meContinue reading “Tomorrow is the Day”
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Has the storm passed?
It has been months since I have written. Months of living in what feels like a fog of sadness, grief and pain and despair so thick I cannot breathe at times. I was faking it for awhile, forced smiles and laughter and pushing my body to the brink every day. I can be strong! IContinue reading “Has the storm passed?”
Decisions, Decisions
All of my posts seem so down, so depressing, so hopeless. Anyone who meets me in real life, finds me quite the opposite. A facade of energy, happiness, ability, strength, and having it all together. Even my therapist said I am very PC, sugar coating my life and my feelings when describing things- and toContinue reading “Decisions, Decisions”
Sunday… 10 Days Post Surgery
Since giving up caffeine and the pain subsiding, I have been woken up with my internal alarm clock before 6:30am for the past 6 days. No amount of trying to count sheep, deep breathing, or peaceful thinking allows me to go back to sleep. My body has had over 8 hours of rest and isContinue reading “Sunday… 10 Days Post Surgery”
Living Life with Stage 4 Endometriosis 