It is 11pm the night before my surgery and I am up, crying, feeling uneasy but firm in my decision for tomorrow. My fertility does not define me, I keep telling myself, though it has for a very long time. I have been infertile for 8 years now, the only hope of fertility for meContinue reading “Tomorrow is the Day”
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Has the storm passed?
It has been months since I have written. Months of living in what feels like a fog of sadness, grief and pain and despair so thick I cannot breathe at times. I was faking it for awhile, forced smiles and laughter and pushing my body to the brink every day. I can be strong! IContinue reading “Has the storm passed?”
Decisions, Decisions
All of my posts seem so down, so depressing, so hopeless. Anyone who meets me in real life, finds me quite the opposite. A facade of energy, happiness, ability, strength, and having it all together. Even my therapist said I am very PC, sugar coating my life and my feelings when describing things- and toContinue reading “Decisions, Decisions”
Disconnected
I have been feeling… a little bit disconnected the past few days. Disconnected from my family, from my feelings, from the fact I am going back to work in a few days. I have been reading a tremendous amount and trying to spend time with my family, though I just feel like I am there,Continue reading “Disconnected”
PMSing… Hard
Today is one of those days. Don’t look at me, don’t talk to me, anything and everything you say will be held against you. The pain is getting severe, first period post surgery, and I am aching all over. My inside hurts, low back, uterus, and my emotions are seriously all over the place. UsuallyContinue reading “PMSing… Hard”
Living Life with Stage 4 Endometriosis 